Toxic

 

There's a moment where you decide to be a grown up. a moment where accountability takes over, not the decision of not making mistakes but being accountable when you do. the resolution to be better do better and work through the issues that caused the mistakes. accountability is hard when dealing with others, your spirit wants the acceptance of others for your accountability, it wants to hear the logic of understanding, of reasoning, of balance, that though you are not perfect you will mistakes, your spirit wants to hear understanding from the outside.

Most of us are facing internal issues, some of us run from them, others deal with them and others pretend they don't exist. Growth of self is pertinent when the desire to deal with others. You will understand your triggers, understand what works and doesn't work for you. While in your journey, while you work, relationships that you developed prior to your work, may or may not change but the if they do it's important that you understand your journey can't include them at this time. Those that can't be on the journey with you, may become angry because they feel like you are changing and you are requiring too much, in totality they aren't ready for their own work so seeing you do yours is intimidating that's where the toxicity begins. It's not that the person or people are wrong or bad it's just that your journey no longer complements there position in your life. If they are not willing to join you or work on themselves, they will kill your will to be better. this is the toxicity, seeing growth but wanting to put a box on it, so that it doesn't continue.

Growth is inevitable