how to move

No one taught me that love would hurt, my aunts and uncles, grandparents taught me how to fight for love, how through the toughest moments that you hang in there. you see it through, you don't let go but they never mentioned love would hurt. maybe because they never left, love stayed and sought it's way through. i wish they would have sat me down and told me what to do, when love breaks your heart, when it takes your breath away, when you spend sleepless nights crying because love is gone. how did someone miss the instructions to what you should do when it leaves, when you are no in a space to receive love, what you should do when it breaks you, how you handle the situation of person. they didn't sit me down for this. I know it's not the source of ego, self or pride, i love him, i mean truly love him. no ill thoughts of his well being or the king that he is. nothing negative for who he is in my life, i just pray GOD finds a way to bless him. heal his hurt and his wounds, that GOD grants his heart the desires of his heart. Speak love, speak truth, speak peace!!!

Missing him

You know that instant empitness you feel when the person you love is missing, that void that never seems to get filled.
 the constant thinking of them, subjective reminders that you care not to see, the faint smell in your nose, the touch of their fingertips on your soft skin, their voice whenever you hear a love song. the nuisance of freedom, without actually asking for it.
Without you i feel lost, without you there's nothing more essential then the co-existence of us.
 i scream in silent rage, with voices unheard.
 i miss you, yet silence is all that gathers these thoughts. nobody's listening, nobody hears my silent cries.
 give me all that i desire, give the freedom of loving, the joy of being true, the dedication of being loyal.
give me the freedom of loving you.
I can't withstand the pain, nobody told me this would hurt this way, no one prepared me for the heartache. missing you and im lost