You ever cried so hard, you covered your mouth because you thought someone might hear you but you're in the house alone. Tears stream without your permission, the more you to swallow your pride and emotion the more they fall. Prayers on prayers as your heart shatters, you can actually feel the chest bone breaking and you heart exposed. 

I fell in love, but he wasn't in love with me, I gave my all, my heart, my spirit, my soul all the eggs in one basket. I felt compelled to stand up to my fears, accept what my heart was feeling and submit to it at all cost. I wanted to build a future, encourage the king within, love him as GOD loves me. It shatters your heart, the changes your spirit  feels, it's hard to process because what you expected and wanted is just a mere illusion of your dreams.

Tis is life but sometimes it just isn't fair.