manifest

 so they say if you speak or write it, it shall manifest. so my truth on this day right now, I am a wife, next year at this same time, I will be headed to planning my wedding with my king, not hurting or healing from another broken relationship or self-inflicted harm because I once again chose the wrong man. I am a wife, a great wife to a great husband that is an amazing man. I speak that I'll be in a new place, enough for my family and a place for my mother. I know what I want, I'm ready for what all love and life has to bring, this time I won't settle for the minimum because I'm already the bare necessity. Enhance, empower, inspire, adore and let's just be. 

I miss the art of simplicity, the moments of intimacy without sexual undertones. Intimacy that wraps your spirit in bliss. eye gazes that cause tears of joy, from just having the moment of love. So much transpires with the act of love these days, points have to be proven, competition of what social media platforms regulate as what should be truth. We often just miss the art of simplicity, your hand in my mine. sitting on a park bench discussing dreams and visions. a long ride just vibing to songs that make sense to the soul. conversations that don't ever seem to end, from one topic to the next, we don't get lost in translation but we get lucid in the art of we. i miss simplicity. 

speak it, write it and watch it manifest. i declare peace, i declare joy, i declare it's time for queen and king to sit on their thrones and be it.

 You ever cried so hard, you covered your mouth because you thought someone might hear you but you're in the house alone. Tears stream without your permission, the more you to swallow your pride and emotion the more they fall. Prayers on prayers as your heart shatters, you can actually feel the chest bone breaking and you heart exposed. 

I fell in love, but he wasn't in love with me, I gave my all, my heart, my spirit, my soul all the eggs in one basket. I felt compelled to stand up to my fears, accept what my heart was feeling and submit to it at all cost. I wanted to build a future, encourage the king within, love him as GOD loves me. It shatters your heart, the changes your spirit  feels, it's hard to process because what you expected and wanted is just a mere illusion of your dreams.

Tis is life but sometimes it just isn't fair. 

A prayer for him

 They say pray for the man you want, he will enter your life. So here I am praying for him, may GOD manifest him right before my eyes. 

Bless my life with a man who is understanding, not just of opinion but of me, isn't quick to insult or demean but understands the history and my mind to know that my thoughts are continuing and it's a beautiful place. Bless a man who is intelligent, able to have and talk about anything, not be argumentative or combative. Send a man who's humble, who loves simplicity, enjoys moments of beauty, finds peace in silence, finds freedom in nature, loves being near and in the water. Send a man who is well versed, can be in any type of setting and adapt without discomfort. Bless me with a man who is romantic, practices chivalry, believes in the little things knows how to make me smile without spending money. Bless with a man who is after your heart, not only believes in GOD but prays and has faith in the power of prayer. Bless me with a man who is kind, gives love freely, displays affection privately and publicly, showers me in adoration not afraid to speak compliments or empower me without me having to ask. Knows me so well, that I don't have to explain when something is wrong, but wraps me in his arms and hugs me tightly but gently to remind me I'm not alone. A man who gives attention without request, wants to see me when he thinks about me, wants to hear my voice when we're apart. Attention and Affection are hand in hand. Bless me with a man who has ambition with a purpose, who is determined to be great and work to his highest potential. Bless me with a man who protects and provides, honors his commitment to me and his family, lives to his principles and morals, knows the worth of me, faithful to my me and our family. Bless me with a man who is stable, mentally, emotionally and financially. GOD only if I'm worthy, bless me with a handsome man, a healthy man, a man i find attractive and desired. that my eyes stay glued to him, that I don't want for anything he is heaven sent, made in the
image of a GOD. Just because of who I am let him match my appetite for him and be great at it, so we both won't get bored or feel the need to look outside of us for fulfillment. Thank you for blessing me with who you have picked for me. 

Amen